So, yea, I got up last night and griped. I hurt! I did end up laying my arm in a sink full of hot water for a few minutes. It helped! I also took some more Tylenol. It kept hurting, but I was finally able to get to sleep. In my bed. Woke up several times with it hurting and uncomfortable, but I got more sleep than the night before. Got up this morning and wasn't feeling well. My stomach was ookey. GAH! Maybe that's been a good thing. I realized today it's helped me to not crave anything. I eat because I know I need to. It would not be a good thing for me to dehydrate, much less pass out!
I don't feel great, but I do compared to the past several days and this morning. There is no explanation. I haven't taken anything since about 10:00 this morning, when I officially got up. I took a nice, hot shower later this afternoon and that made me feel lots better! I got a lot done today from home school-wise. We're going on a trip soon and I was organizing some last details about it. I think I might actually make it to school tomorrow. I really don't want to miss church either. I'll just have to take it easy.
I went up to the school today for Show Choir practice to leave some CD's. From there? Wal-Mart, the cursed. I love Wal-Mart otherwise. What one place can supply one's needs so effortlessly? I had to get material for Show Choir. I had to get some Sprite and Pepto and Aspercreme. So, on my way in, cashews catch my eye. Of course they're salted. Hmmm... wonder if they have any that aren't. The nuts are close to the cokes, so I take a gander. Why not? I need something crunchy to snack on. Celery and natural peanut butter is getting old. I don't really even like celery that much. No nuts to be found without salt. Oh well. So, I turn around to go the other way and something catches my eye. WHAT? I looked for that BOTH times I spend three + hours reading labels! Unsalted potato chips? You've GOT to be kidding me! It was THE only bag. It was sitting in front of other bags, but no other unsalted potato chips to be found. Period! So, what then, can you eat with unsalted potato chips? Not salsa. Although it's good for me, it's loaded in salt. Guacamole? Let's see. "Ingredients:" Oh gah. Here we go. Not again, but I've just GOT to have something to go along with my newly found treasure. I rarely ever snack, and never on chips if I do, but when you can't have this and can't have that... you get the point. "Ingredients: blah, blah, blah, blah, contains 2% or less of the following: blah, blah, blah, blah salt, blah blah blah". Less than 2%? I'm game! It was decent. I was not about to read any more labels.
So, I go on with my list. Milo's tea, check. Material, check. Uh oh. Clearance. I feel a little weak. Maybe I should skip the clearance this time. I am now the proud new owner of a lamp. Soap, check. Aspercreme, check. Pepto, Hey! Here's a 75 cents off coupon. Cool! They have a new cherry flavor and it doesn't have Red Dye #3. Cooler! I have been wanting a lamp and picky about it, so it wasn't actually an impulse buy. $35.99 marked down to $9.99. I'll take it! AND I like it! Mt. Dew, I don't usually drink you. You are bad for me, but I can have you right now. $1.38 for 20 ounces? GAH! Ok, whatever.
I got out of there with just a few things that weren't on my actual list. It's OK. I didn't go overboard like I sometimes do.
So, I'm wondering why I'm not hurting. It doesn't make sense. I felt ookey this morning, but have felt much better since that hot shower. My arms were fine. My legs didn't feel too badly walking around in Wal-Mart. Strange. The past few days I've had trouble just walking around the house. I had even planned for someone to go with me and get the things on my list while I got material (had to use a Purchase Order from school, so nobody could do that for me). I told her nevermind, I'd do it. What has made me feel better so suddenly? There is no explanation. I haven't had any Tylenol since about 10:00 this morning. My arms did start hurting a little while ago. I rubbed some Aspercreme on them and it's like magic. My right arm hasn't bothered me to much today at all. Maybe I shouldn't question it. It's just baffling. I haven't done anything differently. Maybe it was all those veggies in the soup I had yesterday? God is pretty cool. I kept thinking, "It only gets worse from here", but I got better. I'm not sure that's supposed to happen. Sure, I'm sluggish and I really have to tell my fingers what to do, but compared to how I've felt the past few days, it's hardly anything. Woohoo! I'm anxious to know how I'll feel tomorrow. If I feel this well, I'm going to school and church without a second thought. YAY! Still taking it easy, of course.
I posted a link on my Facebook page last night of a song that I think is beautiful. I just posted it because I like the song. On the side was Psalm 91. I didn't even read it before I put it up there and someone commented on it. I read Psalm 91 and it was an awesome read! God shows you things when you least expect it. I am loving the way He uses other people to show me things and teach me things. He is my comfort. I know this "battle" will not last much longer.
I watched Yes, Man tonight. Got it for $1 in the Wal-Mart vendy thingy. Why didn't I think of a DVD vending machine? Anyway, it was pretty good. Not a very long movie, but it took me forever to watch it. You see, God has blessed me that I have people that care about me that I had to pause or keep rewinding it due to calls and text messages. Not many people. I'm not a person of thousands of friends, but it was nice to get a little aggravated and then realize, "Hey, there are people out there that care." How are they supposed to know I'm trying to watch a movie? God has blessed me far beyond what I deserve. HE is the only explanation that I have felt the way I have the latter part of today. I have done nothing differently than other days. Maybe I'm just getting used to feeling like this, but if so, that comes from Him, too. Pretty cool.
Here's hoping I'm able to get up and go to school tomorrow. Hopefully I can make it. My stomach still feels gross. Maybe God has given me that sensation so that I don't care anything about running to Taco Bell for a Mexi-melt right now, or craving one of those places I mentioned last night, or whenever it was. My last couple of days are running together. I can't explain the not craving things besides God's help either. OK. Maybe I've craved Pizza Hut a little, but really, I can't think of anything else I'm craving. The kids are going to do a Pizza Hut fundraiser, so that's probably why. It's been on my mind, but still, it's not a maddening craving.
Two weeks from today... WAIT! ONE WEEK from today... WOW!!! ... I will be spending my first overnight stay in the hospital (except for when I was born. Seems like I was only there for 2 or 3 days then anyway). I'll be killing some thyroid/cancer cells right about now. My throat may hurt, I may get really sick to my stomach and I will probably be sick of taking showers, drinking, peeing, and eating Lemon Heads (which I should probably get my hands on more of between now and then), but that's OK. It'll be here. It'll be real. It'll be closer to the end of this! Praise God! Wow, I really was thinking it was still 2 weeks away. Tomorrow will be 2 solid weeks I've been off meds and on this diet. Time FLIES! I was so occupied with other things, awesome things (church services) last week and the week before for that matter that it has flown by.
I enjoyed seeing some... what are those called? Oh yea, people today. Hadn't seen a face since Sunday evening. That's not fun sometimes! Yikes. I better get used to it. Maybe next week will go as quickly as these past 2 have. That's all for now. I'm going to go to bed now and have a great day tomorrow!
God is amazing all the time. All the time, God is amazing.
Peace, love, and fried chicken fingers.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
For the LOVE
This may be where irritability kicks in. It's 2:25 AM. I finally get comfy enough to fall asleep. I woke up. Made the mistake of moving. Hurts. Everything is pretty much OK except my right arm. Feels like somebody's pulling it and stretching every muscle in it. My fingers are slow at typing. Ugh! Who do you vent to at 2:27 AM? How about the computer. Took some Tylenol. It'll probably take a while for it to kick in. Maybe I should try the couch. I really want to go to school tomorrow. Will my alarm on my phone go off at 6:00? It's been flakey lately. Maybe if I had some Aspercreme. Guess who is NOT going to Wal-mart though? EVER again? Squeezing helps. Rubbing, not so much. At least my legs are not too bad tonight. I think the movement of my fingers typing helps. Something's gotta give. Hot water. I'll try hot water. Maybe I should go to Lowe's tomorrow and ask if I can rent a hottub. Good idea. 2:33 AM.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Day 13 -- no meds, low iodine diet
It's almost 10:00 PM. I've only been up for about 7 hours. Not a very good day today physically-wise, but it could have been worse, which I fear tomorrow will be. I didn't sleep well last night because I was so achy. Not so much my legs as my arms. Just couldn't get comfortable. I got up to get ready for school and was sick at my stomach. Couldn't go. Don't want my kids to be miserable with me there either. It's OK though. At least I knew it was coming, right? I knew to expect it. I was told I'd have flu-like symptoms. Am going to try really hard tomorrow, but don't know if I'll be able to. I've been told by specific people they'll donate sick days, which I'm going to need. Grrrr. I was really hoping I'd make it every day this week. I would have much rather been there than here. It'll all be over soon though. I feel like I'm becoming destracted. I have to keep my focus on God and not on me and how badly I feel. My arms hurt typing this. Waaaah. Poor baby. I know. Whatever. I'll get over it because I really want to do this. I have found some relief in Tylenol. Don't know if I'm supposed to take it. Surely it won't hurt. I can't seem to find any ingredients that I'm not supposed to have. Gotta have something.
Maybe I feel so bad because it's day 13. Just kidding. I'm not supersticious. Just the other day I opened my umbrella in class so a student could see it. Black cats? Bring them on! Ladders? Sure, I'll walk under it for ya. Broke a mirror? Well, clean it up! Just be careful. Do black cats get bad luck when they walk under ladders, or are they immune because they're black cats? Hmmm...
I just went to watch Little People, Big World. They were in Huntsville. Their youngest, Jacob, was in space camp for a week. They also went to Ivy Green, Helen Keller's birthplace in Tuscumbia. Not far up the road from here. That was pretty cool! I was lying on the couch and thinking during commercials. I thought, "one week from tomorrow is when I'll be admitted" and I got excited. Not sure why. Maybe because the anticipation of "what's it gonna be like?" will be gone and this will be that much further behind me and I'll be that much further to feeling better.
God is so evident. He IS by my side. I AM in His hands. He is my strength. I have to remember that and continue to keep my focus. He's taking me through this journey for a reason. Maybe it's so I can reach out? I could get on here and not mention Him. I have to. I couldn't make it through without knowing He is with me and that He has a plan. I don't know if I'll ever know exactly why I'm going through what I'm going through, but I do know that He does. That is comforting! Psalm 28:7 says "The LORD is my strength and my shield..." 1 Peter 5:10 says "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." Wow! ...about the verse itself and that I remembered the chapter and verse. I'm not so good with remembering numbers, or much else for that matter. I had to look it up, but that was it. That was a verse someone shared with me today. WOW again, I say!!!
Another something someone shared with me today was Cardboard Testimonies. I had never heard of such. Go to www.youtube.com and look it up. You will not be disappointed. SO cool! Do it! Do it! God showed me many things through watching some of those videos. Again, how this is not so bad and it could be so much worse for me. Not just that it could be worse for me but that it IS SO MUCH WORSE for many people. My prayer is that we as Christians will find our way into those struggling hearts and give them the opportunity to have a cardboard testimony. That is why we're here, afterall. To live our lives for God. To share Him with others. To reach out with unconditional love. Christians are not perfect by any means. Thank God we serve a forgiving, loving God!!! Pardon the expression, but if I feel like crap because you were supposed to read that, well then... GOOD! :) Maybe though, I'M the one that needs to read it!!!
You know, it's been a struggle finding food I can eat. At least I have a choice and at least I have food.
It's not easy at times living alone while feeling badly. I have a computer and can afford the luxuries of monthly internet charges to be able to get on here and vent and talk to people when I'm alone. Some people don't know what a computer is.
I hurt and feel achy and run down. I am fortunate to be able to get up in the mornings. I am not physically disabled.
I am blessed. I chose that as my blog title because it's so true. That was in January. I can't tell you the many blessings I've received since I titled my blog "Carrie's Blessed Life". Gah. God has certainly used his people lately to reach out to me. A couple of instances... I came home Friday and my yard had been mowed. I was telling my Dad, "It could have been _______ or ______ or ______ or..." He, kinda teary-eyed, said, "Isn't it great you have that many people you could assume it was?" Of course I agreed. I figured out who it was and of course they won't let me pay a dime. Also, (most of) my family came here for Easter. I jokinly said, "I don't know what they're going to eat!" It was taken care of in no time. Again, without me being able to pay a penny. What blessings!!! Also, food was especially prepared for me. *SIGH* God is amazing. I have to quit now. I'm getting teary-eyed myself thinking about God blessing me through is incredible people.
Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. Though I've not been up long, I feel like I could crash right now and go straight to sleep. I have a sub "on call". She is awesome. Musically inclined. The kids love her. Most importantly, she loves the kids. You go through a sub list, find all those things and get back with me. I bet you'll have a hard time finding anyone like her! Another blessing!!!
Thursday is my appointment in Huntsville to see if my TSH levels are high enough to proceed with therapy. Please pray they are. I really hope I feel like the drive. If not... ??? ...
Day 13 down. 10, 11, 12, 13 to go? We shall see. Know what that means though? I'm half way finished with the diet part! I just realized that. WOOHOO! Oddly enough, food commercials haven't gotten to me that badly. Yay! Sure, I'd love some Olive Garden or Ruby Tuesday or Chili's or Taco Bell or (you get the point) right about now, but I'm not dying. Who ever thought I could make it so long without cheese? I even have some in my fridge. I haven't touched it.
Carrie + no cheese + making it fine= Jesus loves me!!!
G'night. God bless you! Much love from me!
WAIT. One more thing. I also realized today that I've been SO worried about how I'll treat people and that I'll be SO irritable. I've been focusing more on what to eat/not to eat that I haven't even thought about the how I'm treating people part, but I haven't snapped at ANYONE yet! I've prayed for that! I haven't even been in a bad mood (yet). YAY!
Carrie + feeling badly - (snappy + irritable) = Jesus loves YOU! :) Hehehe!
God is good ALL the time! He adores YOU!
Maybe I feel so bad because it's day 13. Just kidding. I'm not supersticious. Just the other day I opened my umbrella in class so a student could see it. Black cats? Bring them on! Ladders? Sure, I'll walk under it for ya. Broke a mirror? Well, clean it up! Just be careful. Do black cats get bad luck when they walk under ladders, or are they immune because they're black cats? Hmmm...
I just went to watch Little People, Big World. They were in Huntsville. Their youngest, Jacob, was in space camp for a week. They also went to Ivy Green, Helen Keller's birthplace in Tuscumbia. Not far up the road from here. That was pretty cool! I was lying on the couch and thinking during commercials. I thought, "one week from tomorrow is when I'll be admitted" and I got excited. Not sure why. Maybe because the anticipation of "what's it gonna be like?" will be gone and this will be that much further behind me and I'll be that much further to feeling better.
God is so evident. He IS by my side. I AM in His hands. He is my strength. I have to remember that and continue to keep my focus. He's taking me through this journey for a reason. Maybe it's so I can reach out? I could get on here and not mention Him. I have to. I couldn't make it through without knowing He is with me and that He has a plan. I don't know if I'll ever know exactly why I'm going through what I'm going through, but I do know that He does. That is comforting! Psalm 28:7 says "The LORD is my strength and my shield..." 1 Peter 5:10 says "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." Wow! ...about the verse itself and that I remembered the chapter and verse. I'm not so good with remembering numbers, or much else for that matter. I had to look it up, but that was it. That was a verse someone shared with me today. WOW again, I say!!!
Another something someone shared with me today was Cardboard Testimonies. I had never heard of such. Go to www.youtube.com and look it up. You will not be disappointed. SO cool! Do it! Do it! God showed me many things through watching some of those videos. Again, how this is not so bad and it could be so much worse for me. Not just that it could be worse for me but that it IS SO MUCH WORSE for many people. My prayer is that we as Christians will find our way into those struggling hearts and give them the opportunity to have a cardboard testimony. That is why we're here, afterall. To live our lives for God. To share Him with others. To reach out with unconditional love. Christians are not perfect by any means. Thank God we serve a forgiving, loving God!!! Pardon the expression, but if I feel like crap because you were supposed to read that, well then... GOOD! :) Maybe though, I'M the one that needs to read it!!!
You know, it's been a struggle finding food I can eat. At least I have a choice and at least I have food.
It's not easy at times living alone while feeling badly. I have a computer and can afford the luxuries of monthly internet charges to be able to get on here and vent and talk to people when I'm alone. Some people don't know what a computer is.
I hurt and feel achy and run down. I am fortunate to be able to get up in the mornings. I am not physically disabled.
I am blessed. I chose that as my blog title because it's so true. That was in January. I can't tell you the many blessings I've received since I titled my blog "Carrie's Blessed Life". Gah. God has certainly used his people lately to reach out to me. A couple of instances... I came home Friday and my yard had been mowed. I was telling my Dad, "It could have been _______ or ______ or ______ or..." He, kinda teary-eyed, said, "Isn't it great you have that many people you could assume it was?" Of course I agreed. I figured out who it was and of course they won't let me pay a dime. Also, (most of) my family came here for Easter. I jokinly said, "I don't know what they're going to eat!" It was taken care of in no time. Again, without me being able to pay a penny. What blessings!!! Also, food was especially prepared for me. *SIGH* God is amazing. I have to quit now. I'm getting teary-eyed myself thinking about God blessing me through is incredible people.
Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. Though I've not been up long, I feel like I could crash right now and go straight to sleep. I have a sub "on call". She is awesome. Musically inclined. The kids love her. Most importantly, she loves the kids. You go through a sub list, find all those things and get back with me. I bet you'll have a hard time finding anyone like her! Another blessing!!!
Thursday is my appointment in Huntsville to see if my TSH levels are high enough to proceed with therapy. Please pray they are. I really hope I feel like the drive. If not... ??? ...
Day 13 down. 10, 11, 12, 13 to go? We shall see. Know what that means though? I'm half way finished with the diet part! I just realized that. WOOHOO! Oddly enough, food commercials haven't gotten to me that badly. Yay! Sure, I'd love some Olive Garden or Ruby Tuesday or Chili's or Taco Bell or (you get the point) right about now, but I'm not dying. Who ever thought I could make it so long without cheese? I even have some in my fridge. I haven't touched it.
Carrie + no cheese + making it fine= Jesus loves me!!!
G'night. God bless you! Much love from me!
WAIT. One more thing. I also realized today that I've been SO worried about how I'll treat people and that I'll be SO irritable. I've been focusing more on what to eat/not to eat that I haven't even thought about the how I'm treating people part, but I haven't snapped at ANYONE yet! I've prayed for that! I haven't even been in a bad mood (yet). YAY!
Carrie + feeling badly - (snappy + irritable) = Jesus loves YOU! :) Hehehe!
God is good ALL the time! He adores YOU!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Blessings
Let's lighten this subject tonight, shall we?
I feel like all I've done lately is complain to anyone and everyone. That's not like me. I really don't like to complain. Sure, we need to sometimes, it's natural, but gah! I need something else on my mind tonight, so I was thinking about some blessings I've recently experienced instead of drama.
I used to get Chronic Bronchitis. The last time I had it, I had it several times in a row. I'd get rid of it, then it'd come right back. It was taxing. I was in my first year of teaching and miserable because it just would not go away. I ended up in the ER (one of only three times in my life... THAT in itself is a blessing) with it and was told that if I didn't get rid of it that time, I'd have to go see a neurologist for lung punches, later to find out that's where they biopsy your lungs. NO, thankyou!!! I realized recently that last trip was right at FIVE years ago!!! FIVE years and I've not had Bronchitis. Thank you, Lord!
I ALWAYS get a horrible sinus infection around Christmas. I made it this year without one. In fact, I managed only to get a little cough and lost my voice a few weeks ago for a few days. That's it. I made it through winter with barely a cold to speak of. WOW! WHAT a blessing! That's unheard of!
It may sound strange, but I praise God for the minor case of Poison Ivy I got in September. It drove me nuts itching until I HAD to get it seen about. Pics I saw on the internet were FAR worse than what I experienced. That Poison Ivy, as dramatic as it sounds, may have saved my life because while I was at that appointment, I said "and by the way, I found this lump in my neck..." The rest is (soon to be!!!) history.
I don't know why I decided to share that. I just didn't really want to get on her and whine for a few paragraphs. I've felt really ookey today and I think that made me feel better. I'm in God's hands and I'm sure that's why I haven't been sick. My focus needs to be on God ALWAYS. A part of a song came to mind this morning, "and I will praise You in the storm". That needs to be a constant in my heart. If I didn't have this "storm", I wouldn't be getting better. I wouldn't be working my way to becoming healed. God knows what He's doing and that is comforting even when I have ookey days or weeks. He is my everything. Why let Him down just because we don't feel well for a moment? Storms are meant to be had. He's there. His here. He is always with us. He will never let us go.
God is good ALL the time, and ALL the time, God is good! Thanks for reading. G'night.
I feel like all I've done lately is complain to anyone and everyone. That's not like me. I really don't like to complain. Sure, we need to sometimes, it's natural, but gah! I need something else on my mind tonight, so I was thinking about some blessings I've recently experienced instead of drama.
I used to get Chronic Bronchitis. The last time I had it, I had it several times in a row. I'd get rid of it, then it'd come right back. It was taxing. I was in my first year of teaching and miserable because it just would not go away. I ended up in the ER (one of only three times in my life... THAT in itself is a blessing) with it and was told that if I didn't get rid of it that time, I'd have to go see a neurologist for lung punches, later to find out that's where they biopsy your lungs. NO, thankyou!!! I realized recently that last trip was right at FIVE years ago!!! FIVE years and I've not had Bronchitis. Thank you, Lord!
I ALWAYS get a horrible sinus infection around Christmas. I made it this year without one. In fact, I managed only to get a little cough and lost my voice a few weeks ago for a few days. That's it. I made it through winter with barely a cold to speak of. WOW! WHAT a blessing! That's unheard of!
It may sound strange, but I praise God for the minor case of Poison Ivy I got in September. It drove me nuts itching until I HAD to get it seen about. Pics I saw on the internet were FAR worse than what I experienced. That Poison Ivy, as dramatic as it sounds, may have saved my life because while I was at that appointment, I said "and by the way, I found this lump in my neck..." The rest is (soon to be!!!) history.
I don't know why I decided to share that. I just didn't really want to get on her and whine for a few paragraphs. I've felt really ookey today and I think that made me feel better. I'm in God's hands and I'm sure that's why I haven't been sick. My focus needs to be on God ALWAYS. A part of a song came to mind this morning, "and I will praise You in the storm". That needs to be a constant in my heart. If I didn't have this "storm", I wouldn't be getting better. I wouldn't be working my way to becoming healed. God knows what He's doing and that is comforting even when I have ookey days or weeks. He is my everything. Why let Him down just because we don't feel well for a moment? Storms are meant to be had. He's there. His here. He is always with us. He will never let us go.
God is good ALL the time, and ALL the time, God is good! Thanks for reading. G'night.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
One week down.
I'm going to complain a little, so don't read if you don't want to "hear" it. Today wasn't that great of a day. I mean, as I keep saying, I know there are people that are so much worse off in MANY ways than me, but compared to my good days lately, this was not one of them. I'm beginning to feel probably like what I'm supposed to feel like being off of my medication and on a low-iodine diet. You know what though? I didn't feel too badly for a week! An entire week! YAY!
I've gotten sick at my stomach a few times today and am starting to feel achy. My legs ache most, but maybe that was from my 3 + hour walk-a-thon in Walmart Monday night. I will NOT spend that much time reading labels again. It is SO frustrating! I'll get what I know I can have and be done... that is if I have to go back. I don't have much energy but I need to fix that. I need to rest more and stop doing stuff. I need to chill. Maybe it won't get too much worse. I'm glad it's still not too bad after a week.
I cooked a pot roast in the crockpot with a bunch of veggies over night last night. Got the beef from pastor's sister who just happened to overhear me talking to his wife about every kind of chicken you can find has salt in it. They raise beef and add nothing to it whatsoever. I had never met her and this came about. That's God! So, I got a fresh potroast and some ground beef. It was really good. I've got a ton left that I'll eat on for a while. A God-send from church offered to come over tonight and help me cut up veggies. So, we stood there for probably an hour cutting up veggies so I don't have to do it later. How sweet! I went ahead and made some hobo dinners that I can just heat up later and eat, too. I would have never gotten it done without her help. She even went as far as preparing my fruit, peeling and cutting kiwi, cutting the stems off strawberries, etc. I didn't ask her to. She just did it. I'd say, "You don't have to do that!" and she'd say, "I know I don't have to, but I'm gonna!" What a sweetie! What a HUGE help! I've been looking up low-iodine recipes and they all say to go ahead and prepare food because you won't feel like it later. Check. I've got supper for many nights now. SO glad I had some help doing it. Living here alone, I don't think I would ever call someone up and say, "Will you please come and help me prepare my food?" Not gonna happen. God is taking care of me. He uses His people when we need them and not even ask for them. She knew I wasn't feeling well, offered to come and help, and I took her up on her offer. Kinda surprised I did, but I did. I hate feeling like someone's gone out of their way for me. I'm sure other people feel that way, too. We sat and chatted for a while when all was said and done in the kitchen and that helped get my mind off of things. It was nice. I enjoyed it.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. Gotta stay positive, right? I go a week from tomorrow to the doc for some blood work to make sure my TSH levels are high enough. If they are, I will be admitted April 21st, two weeks from yesterday.
I have GOT to get in bed. I need to get to bed earlier to ensure feeling better. BUT, Rachel and I are going to see Wicked on Saturday. YAY!!! I can't WAIT! It gives me something to look forward to! LOVE Wicked! Must go to bed. Sorry for complaining. Just keeping it real. I could feel MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH worse!!! I can get up in the mornings and thank God for a new day. This still isn't and never will be that bad! NO feeling sorry for me. This is just a place to vent. I warned you that I was going to complain, too. Maybe tomorrow I'll stop complaining... which may mean stop blogging. :)
G'night.
I've gotten sick at my stomach a few times today and am starting to feel achy. My legs ache most, but maybe that was from my 3 + hour walk-a-thon in Walmart Monday night. I will NOT spend that much time reading labels again. It is SO frustrating! I'll get what I know I can have and be done... that is if I have to go back. I don't have much energy but I need to fix that. I need to rest more and stop doing stuff. I need to chill. Maybe it won't get too much worse. I'm glad it's still not too bad after a week.
I cooked a pot roast in the crockpot with a bunch of veggies over night last night. Got the beef from pastor's sister who just happened to overhear me talking to his wife about every kind of chicken you can find has salt in it. They raise beef and add nothing to it whatsoever. I had never met her and this came about. That's God! So, I got a fresh potroast and some ground beef. It was really good. I've got a ton left that I'll eat on for a while. A God-send from church offered to come over tonight and help me cut up veggies. So, we stood there for probably an hour cutting up veggies so I don't have to do it later. How sweet! I went ahead and made some hobo dinners that I can just heat up later and eat, too. I would have never gotten it done without her help. She even went as far as preparing my fruit, peeling and cutting kiwi, cutting the stems off strawberries, etc. I didn't ask her to. She just did it. I'd say, "You don't have to do that!" and she'd say, "I know I don't have to, but I'm gonna!" What a sweetie! What a HUGE help! I've been looking up low-iodine recipes and they all say to go ahead and prepare food because you won't feel like it later. Check. I've got supper for many nights now. SO glad I had some help doing it. Living here alone, I don't think I would ever call someone up and say, "Will you please come and help me prepare my food?" Not gonna happen. God is taking care of me. He uses His people when we need them and not even ask for them. She knew I wasn't feeling well, offered to come and help, and I took her up on her offer. Kinda surprised I did, but I did. I hate feeling like someone's gone out of their way for me. I'm sure other people feel that way, too. We sat and chatted for a while when all was said and done in the kitchen and that helped get my mind off of things. It was nice. I enjoyed it.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. Gotta stay positive, right? I go a week from tomorrow to the doc for some blood work to make sure my TSH levels are high enough. If they are, I will be admitted April 21st, two weeks from yesterday.
I have GOT to get in bed. I need to get to bed earlier to ensure feeling better. BUT, Rachel and I are going to see Wicked on Saturday. YAY!!! I can't WAIT! It gives me something to look forward to! LOVE Wicked! Must go to bed. Sorry for complaining. Just keeping it real. I could feel MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH worse!!! I can get up in the mornings and thank God for a new day. This still isn't and never will be that bad! NO feeling sorry for me. This is just a place to vent. I warned you that I was going to complain, too. Maybe tomorrow I'll stop complaining... which may mean stop blogging. :)
G'night.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Day 5
So, I figured I'd be going crazy about now...
Honestly? This low iodine diet is not easy to find things you can eat. Americans use salt in every little thing. It's a wonder we're not preserved for a million years! I'm surprised there's not salt in sugar!
Honestly? I was afraid after my long day and our rehearsal Friday night that I wouldn't make it through the cantata this morning without at least having to sit down, and really thougth I wouldn't make it through twice. With a littlle leaning on the pew beside me towards the end of the second time, I made it fine and they did an incredible job! Exhausted? Yes. They are SO talented! I am tremendously blessed and thankful that God has put me where He has, especially right now in my life! I can't imagine not having the people in that church right now.
Honestly? I don't feel great, but I definitely don't feel terrible. Maybe it's coming. I may wake up in the morning and feel terrible. I'm praying I won't. I feel more tired and groggy and sluggish than anything else. I'll take that over flu-like symptoms any day! The cure? Sleep! Rest! Easy!
Honestly? GOD. That is the only explanation of me feeling decent. He keeps me going. I prayed this morning as I was directing and singing that He would help me out. I kinda had this tunnel vision thing going on and felt like I was going to... well, honestly? Hit the floor. I prayed and He gave me the strength to regain my focus and finish the cantata.
Honestly? I'm waiting to feel ookey pretty soon. I'm finished with the cantata, so if I do, I'm OK with that. It won't last long and I'll be back to my normal self soon. Do not attempt to define "normal". Thanks.
Honestly? It feels really good to get on here and share with the cyber world. I'm trying SO hard not to complain to people about the diet and how I feel. It's hard. It's really hard when people ask. I have to be honest. People are super nice to be so concerned! I am blessed. I can't say that all of these blogs will be upbeat, but that's why it's here. This has definitely been an outlet as I hoped it would.
TWO weeks to go, then therapy, then I'll be on my way to me again. Off to beddie bie. Thanks for reading. God bless you!
Honestly? This low iodine diet is not easy to find things you can eat. Americans use salt in every little thing. It's a wonder we're not preserved for a million years! I'm surprised there's not salt in sugar!
Honestly? I was afraid after my long day and our rehearsal Friday night that I wouldn't make it through the cantata this morning without at least having to sit down, and really thougth I wouldn't make it through twice. With a littlle leaning on the pew beside me towards the end of the second time, I made it fine and they did an incredible job! Exhausted? Yes. They are SO talented! I am tremendously blessed and thankful that God has put me where He has, especially right now in my life! I can't imagine not having the people in that church right now.
Honestly? I don't feel great, but I definitely don't feel terrible. Maybe it's coming. I may wake up in the morning and feel terrible. I'm praying I won't. I feel more tired and groggy and sluggish than anything else. I'll take that over flu-like symptoms any day! The cure? Sleep! Rest! Easy!
Honestly? GOD. That is the only explanation of me feeling decent. He keeps me going. I prayed this morning as I was directing and singing that He would help me out. I kinda had this tunnel vision thing going on and felt like I was going to... well, honestly? Hit the floor. I prayed and He gave me the strength to regain my focus and finish the cantata.
Honestly? I'm waiting to feel ookey pretty soon. I'm finished with the cantata, so if I do, I'm OK with that. It won't last long and I'll be back to my normal self soon. Do not attempt to define "normal". Thanks.
Honestly? It feels really good to get on here and share with the cyber world. I'm trying SO hard not to complain to people about the diet and how I feel. It's hard. It's really hard when people ask. I have to be honest. People are super nice to be so concerned! I am blessed. I can't say that all of these blogs will be upbeat, but that's why it's here. This has definitely been an outlet as I hoped it would.
TWO weeks to go, then therapy, then I'll be on my way to me again. Off to beddie bie. Thanks for reading. God bless you!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Day 2 -- No Meds, Low-Iodine
Today is the second day I've been off of my medication and on a low-iodine diet. I was exhausted last night after church and came home and pretty much crashed. I didn't feel too badly. Yay!
I feel like I'm dragging a little bit more today, but I have not felt horrible. I don't feel GREAT, but I don't feel terrible either. Maybe I eventually will, maybe I eventually won't. We'll see.
Tomorrow is a long day and I pray I make it through it without complaining too much.
My students have been really sweet to me. Some of them joke around with me and say, "Miss Morgan! You haven't punched anybody in the face yet!" When I told them I might be grumpy for a while, one asked, "Awww. Can we all put on a bubble suit and come and give you a hug while you're in the hospital?" Another asked, "Can we bring Spring Break to you?" I didn't understand what he meant, so he explained, "You know, like come and decorate your room like it's the beach or something?" Sweet. Both of these students were guys, too. Middle School guys are supposed to be mean.
Here's hoping for a good tomorrow. The show choir is performing their show for parents after their rehearsal after school tomorrow and we have our dress rehearsal for our cantata Sunday morning. I'll make it, and I'll feel FINE doing so (I hope and pray). :)
Blessings to you all! Thanks for reading.
I feel like I'm dragging a little bit more today, but I have not felt horrible. I don't feel GREAT, but I don't feel terrible either. Maybe I eventually will, maybe I eventually won't. We'll see.
Tomorrow is a long day and I pray I make it through it without complaining too much.
My students have been really sweet to me. Some of them joke around with me and say, "Miss Morgan! You haven't punched anybody in the face yet!" When I told them I might be grumpy for a while, one asked, "Awww. Can we all put on a bubble suit and come and give you a hug while you're in the hospital?" Another asked, "Can we bring Spring Break to you?" I didn't understand what he meant, so he explained, "You know, like come and decorate your room like it's the beach or something?" Sweet. Both of these students were guys, too. Middle School guys are supposed to be mean.
Here's hoping for a good tomorrow. The show choir is performing their show for parents after their rehearsal after school tomorrow and we have our dress rehearsal for our cantata Sunday morning. I'll make it, and I'll feel FINE doing so (I hope and pray). :)
Blessings to you all! Thanks for reading.
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